Girls only please?

How do you repair yourself after being emotionally abused by a guy for over a year? Ten years ago, I was PHYSICALLY abused by a boyfriend and one day his checkbook didn't balance and he took it out on me and stabbed me multiple times in the chest. I was on left for dead. Somehow after being in a coma and on life support, I survived it. But it seems the emotional abuse from this recent bf is worse than the physical abuse was. I would rather be thrown on the floor and repeatedly kicked than told I am worthless and to go to hell. I am not a low life. Guys tell me I am very attractive, and I am an RN and currently taking cles to get my BSN, Please, help me. Has anyone out there been through emotional abuse? I stayed with this guy so long cuz I loved him. In the last year he began telling me he loved me, and recently he said he never did, he only used me cuz I am a good ****. Now I puke and cry all the time. The things he says to me are just horrible and it has killed me.